since i started up school again.. I've finally had a summer off - its been nice - a tad boring but oh well. Ive been getting good marks - got on the honour roll first semester - just missed it by 2%.. was pretty mad- got one of those teachers that just didnt teach properly - good thing I got 80% on the final to pass that course with a 74..

going back to school has really done me good - ive learned that I have a very bad "sloth" complex - if I am isolated I slowly degenerate and withdraw into myself.. I need to be around people - If i'm not I get antisocial and snap at people.. and some of my bad qualities seem to come out - also my short term memory seems to disappear altogether.. I noticed this in the year that I was looking for work - well sort of - when I finished my last course..

I'm still not sure if working for architects is for me - but Ive learned that my goals all seem unrealistic and/or costly anyways so maybe this is for the best - gotta work somewhere - also my mom is getting real antsy about me staying at home - and doesnt hesitate to jab me every chance she can get. It just seems like im in a fog - its like i can see the big huge bump in the road that will jar me back into reality coming up but I just cant bring myself to move out of the way..

neways problems aside ive been working a lot of my tattoo flash art - might as well make up for lost time and go around selling some when I get enough.. I still make music every now and then - I think im getting too cocky tho..

still looking for love too.. with every failed relationship I get bitterer and bitterer.. I now dont even give any online people a chance.. its not easy being gay and hating the majority of other gay people because they are shallow and have no moral values..

still im glad to be in school - met some really nice people... and thats the way life goes - Ive seen some people that have inspired me to do artwork again after a whole year of inactivity - for the longest time I no longer had a purpose when I realized that making graphics for video games most likely wasnt going to be an option. However I can always make manga art and submit it to tokyopop - maybethey'll do something with my failed flash script.. hopefully things will look better in the future..